Currently...

Obsessing Over... The Hunger Games, I've seen it once and I'm really dying to see it again, but its school holidays, the teens and tweens are scaring me away from the cinemas, but maybe I'll take my best friend on Saturday night.

Working On... making more money, I've start working with my parents again, which is great because I get to work from home and it help substitute the hours that I'm not getting at my real job, where I'm only getting part timeish hours at the moment, and I'm still looking for another part time job to make everything a little easier, and less stressful.

Thinking About ... redecorating my room, I moved into my own room at my parents in November, I've been working on making it my own space since then. I've painted, re-carpeted, and now I'm working on adding all the extra things that make it mine. All I need now is chairs, well a chair and hopefully a chaise lounge or daybed, but I'm saving up for them so it may be a while.


Anticipating ... my trip to Bali in November, its still a while away but I can't wait. I've in 4 different countries over the last 9 years but the only time I've been to Asia was through the airports and after my trip to Fiji last year I've really excited to get away again.

Listening to...

This song is great, The Treble is a band from Winnipeg and one of the members is the cousin of one of my good friends from Canada, and the video clip is pretty awesome to raise money and awareness for the red cross.

Eating... well you mean beside easter eggs and hot cross buns? Lots of seafood and stir-frys at the moment, I made delicious sweet chilli prawn fettucini and it was a big hit.
                              
Wishing ... that I could invent teleportation because I've been really missing my canadian life over the past couple of weeks but then I love being home and being able to drive around and see my family and the growing brood of kiddies. But a Canadian adventure is definitely due in 2013 I believe or at least that will be my aim.

Birthday Party Time

It was a Superhero Themed 25th Birthday Party, and I had so much fun!

Work...

Some days I love my job, some days I would rather shoot myself in the foot than go to work, its one of those things that I know everyone goes through, but today was  one of those day where I look at some of my customers and think gee I hope I'm like that when I'm their age.

Our cafe is in a changing country town that is becoming more urbanized but still a lot of our customers are delightful older country people lovely old gentlemen and ladies. The kind that when you look at them you think I hope when I'm their age that I'm just a much in love with my husband as they are and that my husband treats me the way these women are treated. I look at the grandmothers with their grandbabies and I know that that's what my mum would be like, also I'm pretty sure that in an ideal world she would have them by now but thats not the way things have worked out.

But these are the days that I love my job and when I finish work for the day and come home tired stinking of coffee these are the things that I remember that make me smile

a to z of charlie

Happy Birthday Drinks to Me

A. Age: 25 (as of this past weekend)
B. Bed size: double
C. Chore that you hate: cleaning up after others
D. Dogs: a very adorable sooky golden retriever and currently dog sitting my sister kelpie
E. Essential start to your day: COFFEE
F. Favorite color: blue
G. Gold or Silver:  silver
H. Height: 5"5 and a half 
I. Instruments you play: does the triangle count? 
J. Job title: barista
K. Kids: not yet
L. Live: tooradin, victoria, australia
M. Mother’s name: ellen
N. Nicknames: charlie, charles, kaz but never kazza that will get a grumpy look everytime
O. Overnight hospital stays:  for grommits when I was little and when I broke my little finger when I was 17
P. Pet peeves: liars, people who are fake, messy customers
Q. Quote from a movie: "just keep swimming" FInding Nemo
R. Right or left handed: righty
S. Siblings: two very different older sisters
U. Underwear: a combination of victoria's secret, intimo and cotton on
V. Vegetable you hate: olives
W. What makes you run late:  taking my time, forgetting to let the dogs out till the last minute
X. X-Rays you’ve had: teeth, both arms, my face, neck and head after getting head butted by a horse
Y. Yummy food that you make: chicken parma, steak, pasta, fried rice, chocolate raspberry muffins, brownies
Z. Zoo animal: orangatans

Moving On.....

Does moving on always feel so forced? I'm trying so hard to move on from things in my life my ex (who yes I may always be in love with), my old jobs (dear canada stop being so damn welcoming ok) and just trying to figure out what the hell I want to be when I grow up.

I used to think I knew that I had some kind of idea, but now, yet again as I'm searching for a new job after struggling to make ends meet for the past 3 months at my current job, which I'm loving less now that my favourite people are leaving and the owners stress about his financial situation is starting to affect my daily life at work and the fact that mentally I cannot cope with only 18 hours a week, I was working 60 hours a week in canada and 45 at the racing stables, I cannot cope working two day a week it is not in my dna.

An my ex, I have guys chasing me, guy making in very clear that they want me and I'm trying so hard to want them back, can this be a case of fake it till you make it? I dunno I guess I'll find out

This Day, This week, This Month, This Life....

After making great efforts to move forward in my life, great new job with people I adore, making hilarious new friends and having great adventures, joining a gym and actually going more than one a week since I joined. I still feel lonely I miss my best friend who broke my trust and the boy that broke my heart, who I have deleted in some ways from my life at least 4 times in the past 4 months since we broke up but can't seem to leave. I want to be over him, I want to have fun with the people in my life that want to be there full time, that when I want to talk to them will always be there which I know he will be too but I kind of need him not to be. He makes it harder to move on because he wants to keep me in his life but he doesn't know what he wants from me and its confusing as hell, because he's dating someone else and all he talks to me about is how unhappy he is, its not my fault and the only person who can fix it is him. People are frustrating.

So its 2012, ready, set, go.....

Its 2012, I haven't had to write it on anything yet so it doesn't feel real. I have a lovely quiet new years catching up with old friends from before I flew the coop, it was great, a nice refreshing chance to be around people I don't feel are judging every word that comes out of my mouth and every action I do. It was weird seeing all my friends is such grown up roles house owners with pets, thank god none of them have kids yet or I would feel really behind the eight ball.

The weather has been tremendous and actually spent my first beach day in Australia in many years on Monday with The Canadian, it was a great time, lots of laughs and good advice shared.

This Year I Resolve to
- Worry less about things I cannot control - because I can't control it so worrying is pointless
- Do the things that I want to do and that feel right instead of doing things simply to please other people and make them happy - hard for a go with the flow people pleasing pisces like myself but trying very hard at it

Those are the main to sure there could be the standard ones like lose weight and live healthier but these I think are more important than that.