After many months of thought I have gone through the process of quitting my poorly paying part time job to move to a poorly paying full time job the biggest difference is now there is light at the end of the tunnel, because I have started work as an Apprentice Chef, which means that in 3 years (or sooner if I can get my butt into gear and work hard at the school side of it), I will be a fully qualified chef and hopefully in a much better paying job and on the road to my dream job with is owning and running my own cafe/restaurant. It is short term (financial) pain for hopefully long term gain.
I made this decision after realising that my passion did lie in hospitality but that I was just working on the wrong side of the pass. I've only been in this process for just over a month but already I know that it's right and this is the satisfaction that i have been missing from my work for the last 2 years. Finally working with my hands again and finishing a full day tired but fufilled is the most amazing feeling.
Sometimes I'm not completely sure where the rollercoaster of life is taking me, but I'm trying so hard to enjoy the ride.